Huwebes, Agosto 4, 2011

Robby's Night

> True Story -- Worth Reading!!!
>
> At the prodding of my friends, I am writing this story. My name is Mildred
> Hondorf. I am a former elementary school music teacher from Des Moines,
> Iowa. I've always supplemented my income by teaching piano
> lessons-something I've done for over 30 years.
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> Over the years I found that children have many levels of musical ability.
> I've never had the pleasure of having a prodigy though I have taught some
> talented students.
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> However I've also had my share of what I call "musically challenged"
> pupils. One such student was Robby. Robby was 11 years old when his mother
> (a single Mom) dropped him off for his first piano lesson. I prefer that
> students (especially boys!) begin at an earlier age, which I explained to
> Robby.
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> But Robby said that it had always been his mother's dream to hear him play
> the piano. So I took him as a student. Well, Robby began with his piano
> lessons and from the beginning I thought it was a hopeless endeavor.
> As much as Robby tried, he lacked the sense of tone and basic rhythm
> needed to excel. But he dutifully reviewed his scales and some elementary
> pieces that I require all my students to learn.
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> Over the months he tried and tried while I listened and cringed and tried
> to encourage him. At the end of each weekly lesson he'd always say, "My
> mom's going to hear me play someday." But it seemed hopeless He just did
> not have any inborn ability. I only knew his mother from a distance as she
> dropped Robby off or waited in her aged car to pick him up. She always
> waved and smiled but never stopped in.
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> Then one day Robby stopped coming to our lessons.
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> I thought about calling him but assumed because of his lack of ability,
> that he had decided to pursue something else. I also was glad that he
> stopped coming He was a bad advertisement for my teaching!
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> Several weeks later I mailed to the student's homes a flyer on the
> upcoming recital. To my surprise Robby (who received a flyer) asked me if
> he could be in the recital. I told him that the recital was for current
> pupils and because he had dropped out he really did not qualify. He said
> that his mother had been sick and unable to take him to piano lessons but
> he was still practicing. "Miss Hondorf I've just got to play!" he
> insisted.
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> I don't know what led me to allow him to play in the recital. Maybe it was
> his persistence or maybe it was something inside of me saying that it
> would be all right. The night for the recital came. The high school
> gymnasium was packed with parents, friends and relatives. I put Robby up
> last in the program before I was to come up and thank all the students and
> play a finishing piece. I thought that any damage he would do would come
> at the end of the program and I could always salvage his poor performance
> through my "curtain closer."
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> Well, the recital went off without a hitch. The students had been
> practicing and it showed. Then Robby came up on stage. His clothes were
> wrinkled and his hair looked like he'd run an eggbeater through it. "Why
> didn't he dress up like the other students?" I thought. "Why didn't his
> mother at least make him comb his hair for this special night?"
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> Robby pulled out the piano bench and he began. I was surprised when he
> announced that he had chosen Mozart's Concerto #21 in C Major. I was not
> prepared for what I heard next. His fingers were light on the keys, they
> even danced nimbly on the ivories. He went from pianissimo to fortissimo.
> From allegro to virtuoso. His suspended chords that Mozart demands were
> magnificent! Never had I heard Mozart played so well by people his age.
> After six and a half minutes he ended in a grand crescendo and everyone
> was on their feet in wild applause.
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> Overcome and in tears I ran up on stage and put my arms around Robby in
> joy. "I've never heard you play like that Robby! How'd you do it? "
> Through the microphone Robby explained: "Well Miss Hondorf .. .. remember
> I told you my Mom was sick? Well, actually she had cancer and passed away
> this morning. And well . she was born deaf so tonight was the first time
> she ever heard me play. I wanted to make it special."
>
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> There wasn't a dry eye in the house that evening. As the people from
> Social Services led Robby from the stage to be placed into foster care,
> noticed that even their eyes were red and puffy and I thought to myself
> how much richer my life had been for taking Robby as my pupil.
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> No, I've never had a prodigy but that night I became a prodigy. . . of
> Robby's. He was the teacher and I was the pupil For it is he that taught
> me the meaning of perseverance and love and believing in yourself and
> maybe even taking a chance in someone and you don't know why.
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>
> Robby was killed in the senseless bombing of the Alfred P. Murrah Federal
> Building in Oklahoma City in April of 1995. And now, a footnote to the
> story.
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> If you are thinking about forwarding this message, you are probably
> thinking about which people on your address list aren't the "appropriate"
> ones to receive this type of message. The person who sent this to you
> believes that we can all make a difference. So many seemingly trivial
> interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we act with
> compassion or do we pass up that opportunity and leave the world a bit
> colder in the process?
>
>
> You know the choice I made. Thank you for reading this
> May God bless you today tomorrow and always

Martes, Agosto 2, 2011

Dawn Heartbreak (Speechless)

For some unknown reasons, I awoke at 1am today. As usual, I reached for my phone even before I get up. And that, I realized, was a grave mistake for it ruined my entire day in a snap.


There was this guy who was in the euphoric stage of love with me. I can't say I don't like him because I find his efforts (and physique) cute (and attractive). My hopes to him went TOO high which was I realized this dawn, as a stupid one. He failed my test of faithfulness, I let it pass. He "unintentionally" hurt me, I didn't mind. He retreated from our deal, that I can't let go. So I, indirectly, said goodbye to him just to see his reaction. And I just felt the feeling I hate the most--disappointment.


Days and weeks passed without communication until I decided to give him a call before sleeping but again, he didn't answer it so I called it a night. And this dawn, as I read the texts messages I received last night as I sleep, I came across one that came from him. He apologized for not being able to answer my call last night. I was about to exhale a sigh of relief when I read the signature of his text. It read "love.zero.six... -Rhon-Jhane."


I knew I jump into conclusion right after without even asking him what does that mean. But  I am not that naive to not get the heartbreaking news. For those weeks that we didn't communicate, he found a GIRLFRIEND! The latter broke my heart. Yes, he disappoint me. Yes, there was no hope for the two of us to be US. Yes, (I think) he doesn't love me that much. Yes, I knew from the start that he doesn't mean his promises. Yes, I knew he was just in euphoria. But I cannot deny the fact that knowing he found a girlfriend in just few weeks, wrecked my heart. I cannot deny the fact that I was once again, left hanging. Yes, he loves me . . . but just to that extent.


And there I was, unable to go back to sleep and singing a Lady Gaga song that I recently came to love--Speechless.  it goes like this...


I can't believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

And I'll never love again,
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless


I can't believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He's gonna get you and after he's through
There's gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it's complicated
But I'm a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless so speechless

I'll never love again,
Oh friend you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

How?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
Wow

Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
Wow

And after all the drinks and bars that we've been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we've been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?

If I promise boy to you
That I'll never talk again
And I'll never love again
I'll never write a song
Won't even sing along

I'll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You've left me speechless so speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose "death and company"
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh